Forever

Money, ugh

Everything is a Lie

LOL, I’m so dramatic. But seriously though.

Detachment

It’s hard to practice non attachment, to something you are very attached to.

-glares at laptop-

Mo’ Money Mo’ Problems, Biggie Please

I don’t want to be rich when I grow up. My father wants us to make a lot of money. Our family has never been financially prosperous. I think for about a year pre-9/11 we had a good ride, but lately we’ve been in the red. This of course ’causes a lot of stress for my family, my mom can’t stand my father and he can’t stand opening bills, and we, the kids, can’t stand being here. It’s depressing, we can’t functions properly because we can’t stop arguing. My sister’s and I can get out, but they never can.

The Wheels Start Turning

Christmas was nice, I didn’t get much. 70 dollars from my father and a Leather Jacket from my older sister. We went to the only place open on Christmas- the movies. My little sister and I watched “The Princess and the Frog” and my parents and older sister watched “Sherlock Holmes”. I got my dad a collection of James Bond Movies. Apparently ”Octopussy” was broken, I got my Mom Rush Hour 3, she loves those movies, and my older sister got a whooole bunch of movies and some other crap I bought for her. My little sister got her hair done and I’m paying for her phone’s 3g data plan. Whew. It was nice.

Breanna left on Sunday morning we didn’t cry like last time. She reached okay, so that’s awesome. I’m sure she took some of my stuff though haha, that bastard.

On Tuesday I got my acceptance letter to Evergreen! So excited. Now I really have to start saving money. Hufff

Nothing Is Permanent; Everything is Sacred

Yes, because nothing stays the same, not anger nor love nor homes nor families, thoese thing become important. They, in their fleeting incarnations, become special, unique. They become things to be treasured. Thats why we should never hold on to things. It’s simple to say, but harder to do. When you let go, you have no pressure, no expectations, nothing. I kind of like that.

Godless

It’s lonely with out a God.

My sister is back till the 3rd, I wish she could stay longer

I was over 12 then short 20, one more and I’m fired. Yay

Pop Psychology

My Psych teacher used to tell us that Psychology Today, was nothing but a bunch of fluff pieces. I’m inclined to agree with her. But what ever, I got a 4 on my AP Psych Test NYAH!

In Which Somthing Happens.

My job has been pretty uneventful till a couple of nights ago when I heard someone try to get my attention. “Excuse me do you know where the candles are?” I look up expecting to see a stranger, but I didn’t. “Yeah just keep walking that way till you hit the wall”. “Thank you” she replied.

My head raced. Seriously, I could not keep my thoughts straight! Maybe she doesn’t work here, maybe she works somewhere else that requires a vest just like ours.  Maybe I should consider finding another job. Barnes and Nobles would hire me now, I’m finally 18! No, it’s the holiday season, everyone is looking for seasonal workers, but if I’m really good, they’d keep me! No, no this is silly, as a Buddhist this makes me a bad person… well I’m not really a Buddhist am I? If I was I’d be a terrible one. Well, what the hell universe, do you think this is funny! I hear you laughing! This is like a bad English comedy… Bah it probablly wasn’t even her. I’m being silly. It was just some one with the same tacky hair as her.

 

It wasn’t. But nothing came of it, so it’s okay. I also worked on Black Friday, 10hours, that wasn’t bad either.

So Your Still Here

Yes, yes I am. I’m still here and hating every minute of it.